The Invisible Prison

I walk around, everything seems clear and shiny on the surface, but as I look deeper, both visually and with my knowledge/experience, I begin to see something wrong, something broken. I also realize that I am an outsider of that brokenness… And then it dawns on me: society and the “normal” just gives the illusion of freedom, but within an invisible prison… Invisible to those that think within the visible surface delusion, which I refer to as the “primary domain”. But to us who live in the “secondary domain”, the state of mind and soul where you see everything from the spiritual shadow-perspective…

Now I could go on with theorizing about all of this, but I think the story of me, a person who lived in this invisible prison and escaped it, is a better way to explain and show how bad this can be. Ever since I was a child, I felt out of touch with “normal” people who were in the primary domain. I never liked restrictions, be it in the way I think or the way one of my “toys” worked. I never liked doing things the normal way. Sadly, the primary domain and it’s occupants convinced my subconsciousness to make me feel guilty for developing my own identity, my own opinions, my own likes and my own morals. Effectively I was put in a state of guilt-based self-torture ridden double dipping, exploring myself and the world with the burden of underlying indoctrination-implanted ideas of what was “good” and what was “bad” holding me in an invisible prison and preventing me from being myself. Anything outside of what I was taught was “moral”, including my deepest feelings, were systematically suppressed in an attempt to avoid guilt, shame and judgement. Having been brainwashed by my parents and their favorite fake news media outlets into being a far right conspiracy theorist convinced they were a “free thinker” or “freedom fighter” deepened my underlying misery… Eventually things just started feeling wrong, and the more material I watched that was based on some *proper* evidence the more I realized something was wrong and that everything I’d previously been made to believe was slowly cracking… The first major bit of progress I made was giving up my abusive, restrictive, mind-controlling religion that I was born into (Orthodox Christianity). I began giving myself the freedom to explore witchcraft and other things that broke the norm, and soon found a whole world where I felt like the stranglehold that was previously on me was gone. The next thing that happened was even more liberating and happened to be the final key to escaping the invisible prison… After an internet friend, who I’d met on my cybercoven and befriended after helping her with computer issues (you know who you are if you’re reading this), posted some transgender related content, I broke down and realized soon after that I am in fact a transgender woman. Soon after, everything I’d suppressed previously under the duress of the acidic combination of wider societal norms and my parents’ indoctrination just flew in front of my eyes and I realized that my previous life was a lie and a self-phobic self-torturing mess. I began to see what was going on in reality, who I was and much more. It was also the missing puzzle in my personal life “rabbit hole” that happened to be my main fascination and “safe space” in the secondary domain. Now that I am out of the invisible norm-prison, I feel truly myself for the first time, and it’s truly liberating to say the least.

In conclusion, if you feel like you are not “normal” but are letting norms and the stuff others taught you control you, you are in a prison most people don’t even realize they are in. Find the keys to each lock like I did, and escape. Unlike a physical prison, there are no guards. Don’t be afraid. If society judges you, you’ve succeeded in liberating yourself. Go out there, fly! Be yourself, even if you initially suffer for it, since you will undoubtedly eventually land in the right place of happiness and true self-honesty! Also, have fun exploring your rendition of the secondary domain and any personal rabbit holes that lie within the dark and dimly lit corners of it…